Oh hai, I fail at this journal. I mostly forget I have it? Opps. I need a new layout. And icons. And to use this journal for what I intended it for- fic.

One day I will be better at updating this. Granted, right now, I should be cleaning. I have to make room for my mother's television, since she's getting a new one, and doesn't want to throw the old one out. Instead, I'm listening to Brand New and kind of entertaining the thought of writing girl!Frank. Or maybe girl!Panic, I'm not sure. I am just feeling the urge to write something, but even I sit down to do so, no writing happens.

Mostly, I just want this movie to be out now. Joker, you are my favorite villain ever. The only way I could be happier about this would be if they had Harley Quinn too.

Okay, I'm going to at least attempt to put my room into some sort of order, and then I'll try writing something I need to learn to not procrastinate.

Oh man, I suck at keeping this thing updated. I don't have anything to say a lot of the time anymore. Thanksgiving was low-key, even though I got kind of bummed halfway into dinner. It was the usual suspects though, so it wasn't awkward. My family is kind of insanely big, but I love most of them.

I totally need to get a paid account, just so I can get some icons. And I will update this later, when I have something of substance to say.

I've been really tired lately, it's weird. Like right now, I'm fighting to keep my eyes open.

But my aunt made ribs and potato salad for dinner and she makes the best food ever. She also makes the worse mess in the kitchen that I usually end up cleaning up after by myself, but it's worth it. Her food is totally my comfort food, no lie. I feel like I gained ten pounds in that dinner alone.

I really, really want to write something, but I get stuck everytime I sit down to do so. I hope this blows over quickly, especially since I'm doing NaNoWriMo- which, um, given my... three, I think, month writer's block, is probably not such a good idea. I will do it anyway, and bitch about it to various people.

I am still just mostly sort of bummed that I didn't get to see The Academy Is... and Cobra Starship tonight.

Ha, I totally knew I was going to forget about this! I need to not have so many journals, really.

I'm going through my iPod- I do this randomly, and delete the stuff I couldn't get into/don't want anymore, and usually I hate it, but this time it's more of getting rid of what I was expected to listen to, and keeping the stuff I actually do like. Which is funny, cause a good portion of my music is stuff that M sent me, and for someone who listens to a lot of stuff, she can be a music snob sometimes. I don't know! I was actually going somewhere with this, but I don't remember anymore. I need to go through my computer too, cause while I keep my files mostly organzied, I tend to just save things to the desktop.

Maybe, most importantly, I am trying to figure out when I fell for Panic! as a whole, and not just Jon Walker. It's mostly just amusing to me, cause they were the last ones I started reading about, and are slowly becoming my second favorite, and I really want to write Jon/Spencer. Or Patrick/Frank. Expect I haven't really written anything lately, not for a lack of trying.

Mostly, I need more icons. I think I'm going to get on that.

First post time. Um. I just kind of wanted my own space again, without people I know in real life reading my journal- there was a reason I had kept the two separate before. There's also the whole a fresh start thing, which I am sort of optimistic about, for now.

And yes, I think that I just wanted a place to talk about bandom without feeling like my best friend was rolling her eyes at me, which is sort of pot, kettle, but what can you do?

So. There may be fic, there might not be any actual content, cause I am prone to forgetting that I've made journals.